once pristine . texts . dreams

I was to move into a new group home from the apartment with Em and Agl. It was way across town in a cheaper area so it only cost $100 per month. AK is in the main room, her bed kind of in the living room. She makes dinner and we cuddle and I am surprised but she is ready to kiss and wants me. I am happy but not ready. There are decks off the apartment with great views of the ocean. The area is low rent with young people but hip and up and coming. There are Scandinavian installations of storage space and the like on some buildings. I hang around the apartment and smoke pot the next day when AK goes to work. I am making a fire in a metal barrel on a table in my room and Johnathan is there. I am scraping hot coals onto my plate and Johnathan quotes a Movie that was stuck in my head ‘was I saying that out loud?’ I ask him, wondering if he heard me or it was coincidence. He said yes I was saying it aloud. I go out of my room and AK is back from work exhausted lying face down on her bed with her butt exposed. It’s a bit dark in the room so I can’t tell if she has underwear on or naked. ‘Hello’ I say and get a beer and some food from the fridge.